In the midst of uncertainty, God is always there for me.
In my Ladies Life group today the subject of Baptism came up today. In fact it was part of Gods commandment. I was baptized when I was 10-12 years old, when my whole family’s was baptized as a group. I’m not 100% certain that I knew what it meant at the time. God has given me enlightenment over the past 45 years. He has enriched my soul in truth and in love. I have not been the model Christian, I have sinned, and I have been mentality ill, but always accountable for the choices I made. Jesus has been there every step of the way.
I’m sure you have already read about my suicide decision the silence and the final choice I made. You see God has already know about my decisions in life; whether I turn right or turn left the scenario’s play out through our self will. I don’t think my life would have been a contented life if I didn’t have Jesus in it as a forefront.
You know about my biological father ‘s death. Father was a miserable man. He was Bipolar and untreated. The nursing home he was in was despicable and smelled of urine and feces when one opened the door, but he was finically indigent and it was all he could afford. He was ready to die and welcomed it. During his life he was a mean person who served himself and thought and done evil things to others most of the time, then he would flip a switch mentality and be the best, sweetest person imaginable.
He played the guitar and and sang many hymens and popular music back in the day. He even had a band. But, his wife, my step mother and siblings did not support him in his efforts. Not one person save myself turned out for the prelude music concert at the Lyons Park event. I felt compassion for all of the band members. One man in particular, who killed himself a month later.
Whether we are mean or gentle God allows us to have free will. Here lately there has been too much meanness in our lives due to racism or determent that riots are needed. Our pastor said that we are living in a Babylon time of self-destruction and self-importance. I do not think he is wrong after listening to the news. I fear for the Christians citizens in the world. There is hate towards them and sadly even some among them towards non-believers. We must pray with a favor for God to anoint us and bring those ungodly an opportunity to come to know him. The song about God leaving the 99 Christians to go after the 1 unbeliever is potent and tells us where to begin in humility and with thanksgiving in our heart.